There's something undeniably mystical about being an instructor of Tantric Yoga. Each day spent submerging myself in this ethereal dance of sensuality and spirituality can be likened to touching the edges of the divine. One's aspirations, fears, and desires unveiled delicately, like a dance that starts with a single beat, a solitary rhythm, an experience that can fling open doors to profound self-discovery. All it takes is an 'open in 1 click' kind of courage, much like my own journey towards embracing the magic of fantasy roleplay as a form of self-expression.
I remember this one incident, etched vividly into the folds of my mind. One warm, languid evening a few summers ago, I found myself drawn into the compelling world of fantasy roleplay. At first, I was hesitant, a little skeptical even, but a voice inside me challenged my trepidation. Wasn't this an opportunity to explore an uninhabited part of my soul, to dive into uncharted depths? I silenced the noise of fears and dressed myself as a celestial being - a blend of fury and grace, yin and yang, male and female. I remember how the silk of the gossamer gown clung to my non-binary form, how weightless the tiara of the sun and moon made me feel. The wand in my hand sparked a fire of unseen authority, and in those moments, I discovered an unprecedented courage blossoming from within.
As I walked into the room, filled with an amalgam of energies, some bewildered, some judgmental, I saw eyes drawn to my aura. Some faces etched with awe, some with confusion, and some even with a hint of admiration. It's fascinating how this kind of vulnerability can unexpectedly play out into an empowering narrative. It threw light on the unseen corners of my personality. The celestial being was not just another character that I had chosen to play. Instead, it was a reflection of my suppressed facets, the highs and lows, the love and pain, the chaos and calm swirling within me, waiting eagerly to be revealed.
Roleplaying or perhaps, the celestial being I became, gave me a unique confidence, an essence that I brought with me in my teachings of Tantric Yoga. It allowed me to confidently voice the sacredness of physical intimacy. It made me open up about the essential dialogue involving our bodies and our journeys, often shrouded blithely in hushed whispers in less enlightened circles.
Today, I realize that by stepping outside my comfort zone, by embracing something seemingly eccentric, such as fantasy roleplay, I was opening myself up. It was a dance, a movement, a 'open in 1 click' kind of moment that boldened me to share my story, my experiences, and my journey with authenticity. Even today, when I guide my students toward liberating their own inhibitions, I remind them of my celestial being, and how it took an 'open in 1 click' act of courage for me to truly comprehend the divine dance of Tantra.  |